Today my rational sane mind says "Cool! It's a nice break that you need" but my emotional woman mind comes right back to say "Wow they are gone!" and it takes over and makes me cry for them. It hasn't even been 5 minutes since they left with their dad to California and I am dying inside. Nope there is no reason for it, it's crazy to feel this way but I do! WHY!?!?! My house is silent. Thats the one thing I always ask for when I come home from work and rarely get, now it's here and I hate it! Thoughts cross my mind like..what if they were in a terrible car crash and I never heard from them again..do they know how much I love them? Now stop it Kandee..Of course they know..but wait do they really?? I do hug and kiss them as well as tell them I love them regularly but is it enough?? At least I can text them and call whenever. Dang I am sad now and I need to get out this funk. It's not the first vacation they have had with him and probably not the last so I tell myself to get over it! At least my youngest (Matthew) will be home with me this week..I guess I will just have to spend lots of quality time with him. For now I better go find something fun to occupy my time .... look out friends here I come!
James & Adrienne...I LOVE YOU!!!
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